It is a b-e-a-uuuuutiful day ! The sun is shining, the birds are singing-- ! HAR HAR HARDY HAR HAR, who am I kidding. I don't even know how outside looks likes right now. It is currently 10:43AM, my shutters are down, my room is dark, and the only source of light is coming from my MacBook screen. I don't even know what beautiful is anymore since my very boring and dull stay in Perth for the holis. I miss Kay Ellllllleeeeee ! I miss the food, the environment, the people and the life there ! UGH ! ANYWAY ! Haha, moving on, when I woke up this morning, my hands were itching to blog and write about something here. Although I do have a Tumblelog, which is like a blog, but different in its own ways, when I think about it, I think Tumblr is just a place where I can express how I feel, what I like, in the form of quotes, to pictures, to all sorts of funny random things that I like by reblogging other people's stuff. It's not really a blog to me, because contrary to Blogspot, I cannot really write as much as I want, and what I want from my head, on Tumblr, because of the followers. And some of the followers are people whom I know in real life, and that would be really awkward to write on Tumblr like how I would write on my personal blog. Ahh, you wouldn't know what I mean. I like staying anonymous (:
There is a fly in my room now, Fuck you fly ! How the hell did you find your way in here ?? >:(
Anyway, ok so I know I said I would pick up where I left off and blog about the things that has happened, like wayyyyyyy back to early this year, but I also said I can't promise you that I will (: So yeap, being the lazy pig that I am, I'll just write on a few major things that happened this year, okay ? Okay. Haha. Hmm, where do I begin :/ Truth be told, there are no major things that happened to me this year, my life here is so boring T.T I've made new friends, and also gained a few enemies on my back. Ok, well not enemy, enemy-- it's too strong of a word to use, hm, more like unfortunate acquaintances that I dislike with a passion, picked up from stupid mistakes that I admit, I afflicted onto myself. Ugh, where do I begin on writing about my stupidity in getting myself involved in this shit. If I could just turn back time and had someone -ANYONE- stop me from getting involved in the mistake I did, I don't think I would feel this bad, or even this guilty, up until today. There's not a day that goes by that I do not think about it. Scarred for life, bitches ! But then, I take it as a lesson learned, everyone makes mistakes, no matter how much we try to avoid it, no matter how saint or smart or a fucking genius a person can be, mistakes do happen. And that's how we learn, right ? But still, everydayyy I think to myself, oh God, whyyyy can't it be some other mistake, why this ?? Of all the things I could've done as mistakes, why this ? Tis' a shame ): Maybe when I grow older, I would look back at my life and just think, "Ugh ! Stupid, foolish girl. You could've done better and save me the bad memories". LIFE MAN. Maybe, if I get myself into an accident, a car accident maybe, I could erase that certain part of my life :D But then again, the memories may be erased, but the actions will not, and maybe I would regain my memories again, and that certain memory would come back and greet me as if to say "Hello bitch ! Remember meeee ? Mwahahahha !!" Ah, Fuck you, nostalgia ! I still have to live with it, though. Haha, how melodramatic can I be ? :P Okay this entry reminds me of that one song from A Fine Frenzy where the chorus goes like,
Goodbye, my almost lover,
Goodbye, my hopeless dreams,
I'm trying not to think about you,
Can't you just let me be ?
So long, my luckless romance,
My back is turned on you,
I should've known you'd bring me heartache,
Almost lovers, always do.
Okay, not literally 'lover', and 'romance', but I'm using it more like a metaphor, a figure of speech if I may, on my memories and how it's haunting me that everytime I think about it, I die a little inside. Sighhh,, happy thoughts, happy thoughts, happy thoughts >.<
Wow, it's 11:31AM now :O Didn't realise the time pass by so fast like that. Well, I guess this blog of mine is working and up and running after all, after sooooooooo longg ! This is a good start (:
Til next time, lovies <3
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